Dance

Looking for the silver lining comes naturally for me. I find it easily. But, I've slowed down and am instead of finding the silver lining, I'm finding faith. Or, trust. Or, surrender to something larger than me. A call to put what I have learned into action.

I have been saying that it is a gift that I am sick. I know this is as much of a spiritual healing as it a physical ailment. This silver lining was easy to find.

A little less than a year ago I started a blog on LiveJournal because I had a desire to write. Within a month, I had 50-some followers and online relationships. People come, people go, but I realized that the intersection of who showed up was not by accident. Now, I'm over here wanting to write and wondering how the relationships keep me from writing what I really feel.

It is what it is.

Have you ever known someone in this lifetime and immediately seen several lifetimes with the person? This happened to me with a teacher/mentor, a man who is one of the great minds of the 21st century, a genius. After a couple of years of intensity, I walked away from the relationship. This relationship became extremely intimate, yet it had nothing to do with sex. After a year and a half, we are working together again. There is now mutual respect. I am his teacher as well as he is mine. There is something great that we are going to put out in the world, that we are creating.

This illness is a spiritual cleanse to prepare for what is to come. It is a gift.

I've known for awhile that he was Henry VIII and I was Anne Boleyn. After trying to deny it, I've had it confirmed more than once. I've also know we were king and queen in 3 different lifetimes. I've known about our lifetime together in Atlantis. We are not always husband and wife, but sometimes brother/sister, colleagues, mother/father/child. While I've been ill several lifetimes have come clear. Richard II/Anne of Bohemia; Socrates/Xenophon; "vampires!" in Budapest -- exchanging spiritual and physical dna. Each revelation comes with a lesson. Each one comes with a clearing of my karma. My throat was the first place that this illness showed up and it is cleansing, truly cleansing.

I'm getting ready for my life's work.....cleansing karma. The revealing of the lifetimes has a lesson in it about circadian rhythms over the lifetimes that is not yet clear. I trust it will come.

In the meantime, the physical world is falling apart in my little world as well as around the larger world. Letting go, letting go, and making room for the new. The Universe is knocking us over the head wth a cosmic 2 x 4.

This post is going private soon, but feels not right to do it yet.

We are the dancers of our physical lifetimes, not the choreographers. Dance.

Welcome to my Journey

If you are reading this, you responded that you wanted to be on my filter for following my spiritual journey. Welcome!

For me, there is no right or wrong when it comes to beliefs. I feel strongly about some things, and I may express that, but I never tell anyone else what to believe. That being said, this is not a place to debate beliefs either. I respect your beliefs even if I don't share them.

At times I speak in an imperative tone. But, imagine if you will that I am writing on a chalkboard with one hand while erasing everything that has been written with the other hand. One thought leads to another. Being fixed or stagnating in a thought blocks our growth.

For instance, I believe in spirit guides and speak to mine regularly. You may not. I also believe that a certain set of beliefs may be a stepping stone to whatever is next. Therefore, spirit guides come in a form that each individual can relate to them. It may be a fly in the room that distracts your attention. It may be an angel who oversees your dreamlife at night. It may be a pet. I do not judge your path or where you are on your path. Likewise, while I feel strongly about my beliefs, I am always changing and rearranging. This is called being Open. And, if you are Open, you are on a journey regardless what it looks like.

You could substitute many topics in place of the belief in spirit guides, such as chakras, or reincarnation. They are all just a part of the journey, but are not the journey in and of themselves.

Separating our beliefs from our behaviors causes duplicity and tension in life. This duplicity and tension leads to pain that comes in all forms: physical, emotional, mental, or spiritual. It shows up somatically in our lives. Understanding and becoming aware of the way this shows up in our lives, provides real freedom. It puts us at a place of choice.

This is not a lecture. This is just the way I write. You are welcome to take it apart, digest it, or throw it away. That's what I will do over the course of this journal.

I'm a thousand miles wide and a couple inches deep on a lot of topics. I'm a SoulCollage facilitator, a (mostly non-practicting) hypnotherapist, a minister, a gerontologist. I read tarot cards, am an intuitive, read physiology, do hand analysis, have studied animal guides, auras, chakras, past lives, energy medicine, and a long list of other things.

I use them all, but I use none of them. It flows through me, it is not me.

Of the many metaphysical and "new age" things that I have studied, I have found the enneagram an extremely valuable tool to understanding my journey. But it is not the answer to the universe. It is a system that is at least 2000 years old and holds some form of truth. Right now, it is my way of speaking and relating to people. I will be posting some basic information about the enneagram (soon.) I also provide "typing" interviews to individuals who are interested.

Onward and forward to talking about enneagrams, body/mind/spirit connection, and circadian rhythms.

Welcome aboard. Feel free to introduce yourself or just stay silent and "witness." Writing is a form of exploration for me. Thank you for being here.